the greatest thing you'll learn is to love

wow, Mitch did it, he really purposed to me. Friday night was my monthly game night planned, i had been planning it for a month. it was just time for everyone to get together and play games and have a good time, apparently around this same time, mitch bought a ring, and wow what a beautiful ring it is. Anyway, a lot of people where there and we were playing the game of things, and i was stuffing my face with chip dip when the question was read, things you wait for, and one answer was "marriage purposal" and someone, i dont even know who, said mitch was that you, and he said yes and gets down on one knee and pulls out a little red box with my most perfect ring inside. Apart from trying to swallow chips and throw myself at him at the same time i managed to say yes, then he calls erik over and gives him a ring pop and asks to marry him too, of course erik said yes and sucked on the ring pop the whole night. It was amazing, everything i ever pictured, it was so touching that i still want to cry just thinking about it, and i cant stop looking down at my now bejewled finger. I keep thinking it was all a dream because thats how perfect it was, haha i'm sure the next year is not going to be perfect, what with figure out adoption and finding a place to live and orginize our wedding, but i couldnt be more excited for all of it, i want to get started right away, i'm ready for my new family.
and i just want to say this
Nick you stupid jackass, you were totally wrong, about me, about erik and about everything else, you are not the only man who would have me, because i found one who will not only have me but loves so much for exactly the person that i am, fat rolls, weird shapped butt and all my flaws. I only hope we can do the adoption without getting you involved, but if we do i can now say that i can look at you with complete indifferance, you don't matter to our life anymore, and the things you have done to both of us arnt worth thinking about anymore.
And to my soon to be husband, i love you so much and i cant wait to really start our lifes together, all the fights and make up sex and even hallway sex. you are my perfect man, and i really believe we are made for each other.

not a normal 20-something

So I went to a club on saturday and even though it was certianlly interesting to really see how this so called "night life" sort of exsist, it sort of made me relize while spending time with these people that i'm not really a normal 20-something real old. They are all so full of life, and its not like teenagers were their choices dont matter because they dont effect them, 20 somethings know thier choices matter and they are soft of coming to terms with that, and relishing just in that fact of life, and what better way to celebrate life then dancing in a sort of sexual suggestive manner to music that ( in my opinion) has no real depth or purpose other then to just dance suggestivelly. And even though it was fun to kind of step into that life for only a few min, its just not me. When i drink, its more like a relaxing thing, like the alchocol sort of allows my mind to calm down and not stress or think about soooo many things, so when i drink i like to sit and relax, but apparently, as i found out from 2 very nice competely drunk guys, that i wasent having a good time. and that made me think, to these people who are celebrating their applity to finally relish in what life really has to offer, me sitting there nursing my drink would seem a little bit of a downer, but to me, a single mother who spends her days worrying about diapers and nuturtion and money, sitting their nursing my drink is freaking bliss!
Now i'm not sure if its just because of who iam that makes me think i'm differant, because in all fairness i only saw these people having a good time, and i'm sure they have many stresses too, but even to sit back and have a good time in that way? is that what all 20 somethings feel? does being a mother really effect my brain so much that iam unable to really function as a 20 something?
Best part of the night was watching the weird ass music videos for these songs, they just make me laugh! its so odd that when the music video for "i like big butts" came out it was like sooo wrong, but now, well hell if there isent some shaking butt action in a music video then its just not popular