Mind walls, and physical ones

I really really hate watching him drive away, and its even more maddening to what him to stay so bad, and all the reason that he has to go just kind of leaves me, and i dont care anymore. I know he wants to wait, but i dont want to wait anymore, i'm so sick of the leaving, of the waiting, its so freaking riduclous, i cant remember why its about waiting anymore. just be patient, your time will come, well i'm done with waiting, i want my damn time to be now, i want everything that i think i should have, that i want so bad i can feel it. I miss you already and i hate it, i shouldnt have to miss you, i shouldnt have to long for you. remind me why, what is all this waiting about. i hate it, i just want to cry. please dont make me wait too much longer, i hate saying it to you because i sound stupid and clingy and all those words boys would call me, but i hate waiting for you and not really knowing why. i want to cuddle with you every night and wake up to you and i know you want these things so why, what the hell are we are waiting for