Stupid little boy

I'm so sick of this, i know i have said that before, but i really cant wait any long. I'm tired of being the only damn parent when i was thinking all along that you actually wanted to be apart of this, but i guess you dont, it will always be me without you ever fucking around to help, nope all you do is get off work and go watch tv and play your damn games, and it probably dosent even ever fucking cross your mind that we need you. its like being in the exact same situation as i was before, stuck in this sort of muddy gross pit of hell stuck with a person who never wants to get out so i'm stuck there with them. you don't want to be with me otherwise you would have by now. or maybe you should sit me down and explain to me why exactly you cant afford a 100 dollar ring because i dont get it!! i dont get what the hell is taking so long and i'm sick of waiting, i'm just done, its never going anywhere and you are never going to do the thing you should so. why you wont i have no fucking clue because it is completly obviouse that i'am the best thing thats happened to you and your just a stupid boy who thinks i will just be around forever for you little fun on the weekend and i'll just be okay with that because i'm a stupid fucking girl, i hate you, i hate you so much for doing this to me. I thought finding someone who loved me would mean i wouldnt have to feel alone, but i feel more alone then ever, because your never around and thats never going to change, i just have to get used to it, but i'm not going to, i will leave you, is that what you want? if not then get off your fucking ass and commit to me already.